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many things in life doesn't goes on as our wish..
life is so tough and hard..
he is a prefect in school, my classmate..
quiet guy..
but is a nice guy to be friend with..
but on 24.04.07, he left us..
he left us and go to another world..
i didn't even have a chance to share gosple with him..
but..
he left us..
i missed a chance to save a soul..
i even blame myself..

i've been living under depression for sometimes..
hate myself..
will this world be better without me?
i'm such useless guy..
i can't read ur mind..
sorry..
can u let me know wad is in ur mind?
please..
do u still like me?

no metter wad answer u give me..
i'll still give u de same answer..
i like u..
that's the facts..
from my heart...

feeling sorry for many things i've done..
especially to her,
my dear..
i break my promise to her..
i fall again..
being a good boy is not really that hard,
but don't know y i can't overcome to the temptation..
really v v sorry..
also need to say thanks for my buddy and friends..
thanks for u all for always stand by my side and encourage me..
now i'm trying to overcome the temptation..
i'll try all my best de..
for ur sake, dear..
love u ever..

last week had been a terrible week for me..
taught that this week will change for de better..
but...
this week is also a hard and terrible week for me..
should friend be trusted?
maybe yes and also not..
my note n exercise book gone missing after lending to my friends..
after that everyone tell me that they didn't took it..
and even worst that few of my classmate said that i hardworking so book missing lo..
i've been feeling frustrating for all this incident..
now..
not feeling well..
fall sick..
pray for me k..

wad the heck is wrong during this week...
v v sad and hard week..
fail my exam,
cane by teacher..
and bla bla bla...
y.........?
feeling v depressing la..
haix...